[ it's a casual optimism that reminds her a little bit of nicky. of the way he always looks out for the good in the world, for himself, for all of them. for how much he believes in the destiny of all of it. his insistence that their drive to do good is what matters most. the way he tries to pull her out of these funks. ]

Hard to look for new perspectives when we don't want anyone to know. [ it definitely makes it harder to connect with regular old humans. even now, with nile, she's not sure how to approach it. ]

Nicky always says everything happens for a reason, but I've been alive over 6000 years, and at this point, I just can't see it. I don't know what those reasons are anymore. Doesn't stop him from trying to convince me though.

[ she wonders what nicky would make of this two-hearted alien doctor. they'd probably get along. ]