i hope ur miserable until ur dead

[morethan084]

CHARACTERS: Daisy Johnson and OTA
LOCATION: Throughout the station
DATE: A few days post mission-until the next mission
CONTENT: Catch all
WARNINGS: Nothing atm.



[Daisy’s been isolating herself from everyone the past few days since finding out the truth about Aleksander. Keeping enough food in her room to avoid going out, and skipping out on the movie/TV night Newt had put together. She doesn’t respond to messages, but it’s hard to avoid someone if they come knocking on her door. Even if she isn’t so quick to answer, she eventually does, looking worn out.]

Hey, now’s not a great time. I’m trying to work on something.

[It’s a pretty lame lie, but she’s too mentally drained to care as long as they leave her alone.]

[It’s late at night when she makes her way to food storage needing to stock up more on snacks to bring back to her room. She doesn’t think anyone else would be up this late and thinks about sneaking back out when she spots someone already in there, but then they acknowledge her just as she’s about to turn around. Playing it off as if she wasn’t trying to avoid them she steps into the room,]

Couldn’t sleep?

[A great way for her to get her anger out ever since joining SHIELD was to work out. Which is what someone might find her doing if they end up in the training room. She has music blasting as she punches a punching bag, making it hard for her to notice someone trying to get her attention. It might be smart for them to just shut off the music in that case.]

[After going harder than she should have on the punching bag on one occasion, Daisy ends up going to the kitchen to grab some ice and the infirmary to grab some advil.]

[OOC: If you have any other ideas feel free to PM/message me on plurk @ morethan084 or write something below.]

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[firstroar]

Please.

[he can't reach it from over here. so while Daisy does that, he finishes sitting up, exhaling heavily. he's looking pretty thin, more gaunt in the face, and his hair's lost a lot of luster.

despite that, he smiles small, apologetic upon seeing her.]

Did I startle you? I'm sorry.

[morethan084]

[Pulling back the curtain, Daisy's holding the bottle of advil still in her other hand. Depending on his angle he might see her bruised knuckles, but goes out of her way to hide them from view.]

No. Just didn't think you'd be awake.

[It's not surprising to see him in here, but he doesn't need to be able to read minds to see the concern on her face. He looks awful.]

This is becoming a habit. Us meeting like this, in here.

[firstroar]

This must be...our secret meeting spot. [his mouth twitches on one side.]

...Secret to our intentions, at least.

[his gaze flits down to her hand briefly before it returns to her face.]

Is it...for lingering pain? From the mission.

[morethan084]

Ah, no.

[She holds up her hand for him to see,]

Went a little too hard on the punching bag. Did they say how long you'll be in here for?

[firstroar]

[hopefully that bag got worse than she did; more things need to not punch her back, in his opinion.

as for the matter of his time here, he shakes his head a little, looking down at the IV in his hand.]

As long as it takes...no less...and certainly no more. [he's not a fan of this room, this ceiling.] I don't like...missing out. On the gatherings the others have.

I want to see them.

[morethan084]

[Frowning, Daisy looks down at the ground for a moment. She's been avoiding any sort of gatherings, or just people in general, since talking with Aleksander.]

Maybe see if they can get you a wheelchair?

[Daisy's been stuck in hospital beds before for an extended period of time. It's awful.]

[firstroar]

[the thought clearly hadn't come to mind from the way Blue's head tilts; he's so conditioned to being confined in this way that alternatives just don't seem to exist!]

Would there be...such a thing on this station?

[morethan084]

Uh, probably.

[Daisy looks around the room but doesn't see one.]

If not, it probably wouldn't be hard to get one.

[firstroar]

Are they common? In the places you are from. [he shakes his head just slightly.] It's...not something I would've seen. From the society I knew.

[morethan084]

[Daisy's used to different planets having different cultures, but...

Wheelchairs?]

Yeah, pretty common. Why aren't they for you?

[firstroar]

[he shakes his head a little.]

Mu don't have access...to human hospitals. Which is likely where they would be. Our ship has an infirmary...which we have built up over the decades...but we lack materials to build much more.

[morethan084]

[She has questions, but Daisy feels that it might be a touchy subject.]

Well, I'm sure it wouldn't be a problem to get here. Probably would just have to ask one of the volunteers in here.

[firstroar]

[if he's bothered, he doesn't look it. rather, he seems more thoughtful, considering the idea.]

Viveca...would be able to bring one, if there weren't one...right? She brings...lots of other things. [though he can only thing of the small stuff: books, clothes, trinkets...]

[morethan084]

Yeah, probably. But I would ask here first, I’m sure they have one somewhere.

[A slight change of topic, but she’s been curious…]

How did you do that? That explosion.

[There’s no anger to tone, if anything she’s just surprised he was able to do it at all. Even if it might have not been on purpose.]

[firstroar]

[the thoughtful look gets cloudy - not reluctant, but not pleased, either. it's an unhappy recollection, but it's one he knows he must have, and have repeatedly to ensure accuracy. memory tends to warp before it's cemented, after all.]

My psionics...surged in a way my body wasn't able to handle. It was like...cupping your hands for a stream of water...only for a torrent to come crashing through. [he closes his eyes.] I was so certain...I could handle it. I felt...strong. Strong enough to stop one more bullet. Hold...one more body in place.

But I was wrong. When the fear came...it took control with it. It...overtook me. And tore everything up.

[morethan084]

[Frowning as she listens, Daisy can definitely relate to losing control of her powers. Especially when she first got them.]

The fear?

[firstroar]

[his eyes open, but his gaze is far away.]

There were too many. I feared...losing them. Peter, Finn... Knowing I was at a limit, knowing if...I pushed too far... I would die.

[his mouth twitches.]

With how many times...I've faced that threshold...I shouldn't be so scared anymore, should I.

[morethan084]

[There's still a lot she doesn't know about him, or his powers.]

I don't--

Really understand what you did exactly? Or how?

[firstroar]

[his brow knits faintly. how to say...]

My psion...type-blue... It generates large, telekinetic pulses. This one was...too large. Stronger than what I could control.

It ruptured, like...water from a dam. And exploded from me.

I don't...remember much else, but... Finn, trying to...keep the ceiling above him.

[morethan084]

How'd you even manage that?

[The words are out of her mouth before she can stop herself.]

I mean, you've been--

[He told her that he was dying over half a year ago, but she at least stops herself from saying that and just completely puts her foot in her mouth.]

[firstroar]

[despite her hesitation, Blue smiles. he understands.]

It is strange, isn't it. Considering my state... [he pauses, exhaling softly.]

That power...it is my mind. Of my mind. So while my body is failing...my mind is still sharp.

[morethan084]

Is this--?

You being here, is this a side effect of using your powers?

[firstroar]

[he nods slightly.]

Partly. Yes. I...should be dead, Daisy. Losing control like that...Mu die from such things.

[morethan084]

How long have you had these powers?


[She remembers what it felt like to have no control over her powers, how terrifying it felt.]

[firstroar]

They awoke in me...as a boy. At the examination.

[he pauses to consider how to explain, whether it should be succinct or expansive.]

Where I am from... At the time a child reaches young adulthood, their memories are erased...and instilled with generalized ones, familiar to every other person... Homogenized experiences.

It was during that process...that I awoke as a Mu. [his mouth twitches a bit on one side.] It was explosive then, too. [but a younger body could take it.]