[ He leans into that touch to his face, still never daring to allow himself to assume he'll always have Blue's hands here to hold him. But the determination to not lose them rivals it.
He lets out a gentle little huff, that stubborn, prideful side of him unwilling to keep itself subdued. ] I can't let you take all the credit there. Nobody brings me anywhere I don't want to be myself. [ There were so many times where he could have cut himself away because he could bear the pain of it if the alternative was worse. Plagued by fears of rejection, of jealousy and abandonment and self worth, of being enough or too much, worth this level of devotion at all. Those fears are always there, not just from past experiences setting those scars onto his heart, but because to have them at all is simply part of being alive.
He's here, now, not because Blue brought him here, but because they've both come here together. ]
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He lets out a gentle little huff, that stubborn, prideful side of him unwilling to keep itself subdued. ] I can't let you take all the credit there. Nobody brings me anywhere I don't want to be myself. [ There were so many times where he could have cut himself away because he could bear the pain of it if the alternative was worse. Plagued by fears of rejection, of jealousy and abandonment and self worth, of being enough or too much, worth this level of devotion at all. Those fears are always there, not just from past experiences setting those scars onto his heart, but because to have them at all is simply part of being alive.
He's here, now, not because Blue brought him here, but because they've both come here together. ]