[ The type to do something like that intentionally. ]
Intention or not, I'm not sure that makes a great deal of difference when it comes to how you felt at the time. Even if you can rationalize it now. [ He finds himself scowling somewhat with the next admittance, because it holds just as true to him, still, too. ] It's fucking stupid, especially when things like this happen and you can't help thinking about it and then also can't help when you still feel some type of way about it...!
[ Part of him hates admitting that. But he's never been particularly good at talking about this sort of thing, either. Feelings. Maybe he's a touch better at it now than he once was, but...
But now sometimes that hurts in its own way, when he realizes it about himself.
Yzak gives his head a little shake. ]
That all aside, he has better trust in you now, I'd hope. [ Compared to back then. ] Where it really counts to. [ Because there is a difference between mistrust and stubbornness. Dearka still pleads with Yzak to let him help more with political matters back home, yet it's not that Yzak doesn't trust him so much as it's his own dumb stubborn ass that kicks in and wants to handle things himself because he is a big strong powerful man who can deal with congresspeople being stupid. By losing his temper and yelling at them a lot. ]
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[ The type to do something like that intentionally. ]
Intention or not, I'm not sure that makes a great deal of difference when it comes to how you felt at the time. Even if you can rationalize it now. [ He finds himself scowling somewhat with the next admittance, because it holds just as true to him, still, too. ] It's fucking stupid, especially when things like this happen and you can't help thinking about it and then also can't help when you still feel some type of way about it...!
[ Part of him hates admitting that. But he's never been particularly good at talking about this sort of thing, either. Feelings. Maybe he's a touch better at it now than he once was, but...
But now sometimes that hurts in its own way, when he realizes it about himself.
Yzak gives his head a little shake. ]
That all aside, he has better trust in you now, I'd hope. [ Compared to back then. ] Where it really counts to. [ Because there is a difference between mistrust and stubbornness. Dearka still pleads with Yzak to let him help more with political matters back home, yet it's not that Yzak doesn't trust him so much as it's his own dumb stubborn ass that kicks in and wants to handle things himself because he is a big strong powerful man who can deal with congresspeople being stupid. By losing his temper and yelling at them a lot. ]