[ He hears the voice, the tone of knowing in it which means he was close enough to be affected by the same thing Yzak just had. He drops his hand from his face, head snapping in Jake's direction, tense, and-
There's a brief pause, a look of recollection in Yzak's eyes (eyes that are as tense at the rest of him) as he thinks, why is it this guy again? Why does he keep running into this dog guy at times like this? When he's vulnerable, dealing with something he doesn't want to be dealing with and definitely doesn't want anybody else to be privy to.
Much less the memory itself. Something so hopeful now just makes him sick with the reminder that it was all for nothing and he lost even more in the end anyway. Should be, Jake says. This isn't anywhere close to where Yzak wants to be; it's not anything close to what he'd wanted "now" to look like back in that memory. But maybe this is where he should be and deserves to be for wanting that much at all. ]
I know that-! [ He says, snaps, for lack of anything else to say because as actually Not Bad as it is to have someone there with him, to ground him and give him anything else to focus on, he still automatically pushes against it. ] These stupid fucking things...
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There's a brief pause, a look of recollection in Yzak's eyes (eyes that are as tense at the rest of him) as he thinks, why is it this guy again? Why does he keep running into this dog guy at times like this? When he's vulnerable, dealing with something he doesn't want to be dealing with and definitely doesn't want anybody else to be privy to.
Much less the memory itself. Something so hopeful now just makes him sick with the reminder that it was all for nothing and he lost even more in the end anyway. Should be, Jake says. This isn't anywhere close to where Yzak wants to be; it's not anything close to what he'd wanted "now" to look like back in that memory. But maybe this is where he should be and deserves to be for wanting that much at all. ]
I know that-! [ He says, snaps, for lack of anything else to say because as actually Not Bad as it is to have someone there with him, to ground him and give him anything else to focus on, he still automatically pushes against it. ] These stupid fucking things...