[ Normal had Dean a twitchy mess, waking up in the middle of the night, keeping odd hours, scaring Lisa with his nightmares. He stands by his decision to have Cas wipe their memories, but the guilt over that lingers like sour perfume, hazy in his head. A year gone, just like that; Memory smoothed clean by angelic grace, Dean removed from their lives as easily as a whiteboard wiped clean.

He shoves another bite in his mouth, swallows it down with the bile in his throat. No time for that train of thought. ]

Nah, it's not for me. All I did was screw it up. [ Yeah he gets the anger. He's forgiven Cas, of course he has, but dammit, man...he should've come to Dean. Not gone off with a demon. ]

Real as it gets. Broken seals, demons, pissed off archangels with daddy issues, the whole shebang.