[ Finn winces at the chiding remarks. He’d been hearing a lot of it lately, often in kinder terms. ‘Don’t put yourself in danger’. ‘Other people can do their jobs better if they don’t have to worry about you‘. ‘What would have happened if I hadn’t come along?’ It made him feel…useless. A liability.
He snatches his sword from the ground from where he’d dropped it scrambling to hide from the barghest. He could feel the heat rising to his face, embarrassed and ashamed of how clumsily it must all look. How amateurish. ]
It’s not like that. I had it! I just…[he trails off, unsure how to explain that it wasn’t that he didn’t have the skill…] I…choked. I could have killed it! I just…couldn’t kill it…you know? Emotionally?
[He groans, rubbing his face, hoping Felix would understand that. Surely someone as experienced as him had choked sometime in his life, had a crisis of morality...it was normal. Right?]
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He snatches his sword from the ground from where he’d dropped it scrambling to hide from the barghest. He could feel the heat rising to his face, embarrassed and ashamed of how clumsily it must all look. How amateurish. ]
It’s not like that. I had it! I just…[he trails off, unsure how to explain that it wasn’t that he didn’t have the skill…] I…choked. I could have killed it! I just…couldn’t kill it…you know? Emotionally?
[He groans, rubbing his face, hoping Felix would understand that. Surely someone as experienced as him had choked sometime in his life, had a crisis of morality...it was normal. Right?]