But he has a feeling it'll be an uphill battle the first few weeks, to not feel pretty exhausted. It was all mental in its way, but... still feels like he'd been through a marathon he was ill-suited for; or rather, his human form was terribly ill-suited for.
The idea of going home without knowing if the precursors are truly gone there, too...
Terrifying, honestly.
But it can also wait. As long as he can make the topic wait.]
... At least now I might be able to get a little more sleep.
[Maybe?
Though the sounds of their voices mingled together still echoes in his mind, from night after night of lying there and listening to them.
Ah, yes... The man with monsters covering his skin thinks he can't be a monster, too. You've seen the way people look at you. You've dedicated your life's work to monsters, fawned over their innards, guilted your poor lab partner to drift in their hivemind with you, and yet you can't bear the thought of being one.
But look at you; if you're not a monster, why are they in your head?
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[He sounds. So tired as he says it.
But he has a feeling it'll be an uphill battle the first few weeks, to not feel pretty exhausted. It was all mental in its way, but... still feels like he'd been through a marathon he was ill-suited for; or rather, his human form was terribly ill-suited for.
The idea of going home without knowing if the precursors are truly gone there, too...
Terrifying, honestly.
But it can also wait. As long as he can make the topic wait.]
... At least now I might be able to get a little more sleep.
[Maybe?
Though the sounds of their voices mingled together still echoes in his mind, from night after night of lying there and listening to them.
Ah, yes... The man with monsters covering his skin thinks he can't be a monster, too. You've seen the way people look at you. You've dedicated your life's work to monsters, fawned over their innards, guilted your poor lab partner to drift in their hivemind with you, and yet you can't bear the thought of being one.
But look at you; if you're not a monster, why are they in your head?
He presses his hands against his ears, cringing.]
I just — I need to get some sleep.