Feels hot all over. Feels like needing to sleep it off.]
Yeah... well. You're not gonna be alone there. We're all going to be different people, aren't we? And if we're lucky, we'll go home and forget all of this, and not have to come back as someone else to our friends and family.
[He's been struggling to keep himself together. To be — Newt. Because that's what people prefer, right? All the positive things that Newt was, the things that apparently allow them to look past all of the awful things he was, too. What are they all gonna see in a month? In a few months? A year?
Will he be worth having around then? Will he even want to be around them anymore?
It's just... It's just...
He stares a beat too long into the distance, distracted, and then shakes his head.]
I think... it would be for the best if I started distancing myself. From the crew. I mean — still work with everyone and do my part, obviously, but... keep it just... work.
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Feels hot all over. Feels like needing to sleep it off.]
Yeah... well. You're not gonna be alone there. We're all going to be different people, aren't we? And if we're lucky, we'll go home and forget all of this, and not have to come back as someone else to our friends and family.
[He's been struggling to keep himself together. To be — Newt. Because that's what people prefer, right? All the positive things that Newt was, the things that apparently allow them to look past all of the awful things he was, too. What are they all gonna see in a month? In a few months? A year?
Will he be worth having around then? Will he even want to be around them anymore?
It's just... It's just...
He stares a beat too long into the distance, distracted, and then shakes his head.]
I think... it would be for the best if I started distancing myself. From the crew. I mean — still work with everyone and do my part, obviously, but... keep it just... work.
[Voice lowering, he adds:]
I've always been good at working.