He closed his eyes at the sound of his name, and used Kaidan's heat as a distraction, laying his head on the other man's shoulder. It would have been easy to pursue another night of intimacy right then and there, going for the jugular (figuratively and literally speaking) before kissing his way up to claim Kaidan's lips. But he restrained himself.

"...Maybe I just don't won't you to see the worst of me," he confessed quietly. He had warned Kasuga when he'd had to flip that switch before, but could he do the same in front of Kaidan? He'd held back last mission for the same reason. But it would be easy for him to slip back into the role of a gangster boss with blood on his hands.